I ran from one doctor to another in search of some relief but to no avail. For many months I could not sleep at night, was scared to lie down during the days, as I was unable to get up from the bed on my own.
Life become sheer hell. Each and every movement became an agony. I was depressed and so was my husband. The strong side effects of allopathic medicines (like burning in stomach, irregular periods, excessive exhaustion, frequent infections) came as surprise to me.
Vicious circle of pain, painkillers and their side effects, more and more joint involved, it became difficult for me to perform simple tasks like bathing, eating my food. Going to toilet was a big punishment for me as it took half an hour to walk 20 steps. Sitting and getting up from the chair, bed was extremely painful and I reduced my consumption of water lest should I need to walk again and again. This further aggravated my problem.
Nearly after one year my physiotherapy started which came as a silver lining in the dark clouds of my life. Also I started doing meditation, pranayama and pawanmukta with the help of cassette. As meditation, pranayama and pawanmukta asana, along with physiotherapy were practiced thrice daily, my body started showing some improvement. As I gained mental strength, I was able to exert more physically.
OH! It was a never-ending dark tunnel through which I thought, I would never be able to emerge. By grace of god, my medicines were reduced and side effects lessened.
Even then during the rainy season and winter, pain would flare up again. At that time, it was really very difficult to keep my morale high. But even then I dragged my self to do my aasans, pranayam and meditation by sheer use of my will power.
At last after 3 years of endless struggle, I was able to walk comfortable without a stick. Gradually as I increased my physical activities and meditation, my tension waned and so was my swelling and pain.
Tension was the main precursor of pain. Now in 2006, I am living a normal life and teaching yoga and meditation so that others can heal faster and live happier and healthier life.