“All of us want happiness and favorable conditions. However, circumstances change, not according to our will, but due to conditions, over which we have no control.” Swami Satyananda.
I consulted many doctors, both allopathic and homoeopathic, but my pain and swelling became more and worse. Literally I became a cripple, who could not sleep at night due to shooting pain. My husband used to take me to the hospital in the wheel chair.
Even among all these developments, I had a deep faith in the grace of God. I used to pray to God that He should end this life, which had become a burden on my near and dear ones. So many times I had told Him – if you want me to some good work or Seva, then make me alright and bring me out of this hell. Walking 10 steps was an agony, but I always felt that God is with me. That is how I gathered my mental strength and tried to maintain it.
By grace of God, I met many people on the way, who consoled me, counseled me and tried to keep my morale high. Like a sinking person I caught of these little strings of hope. I tried every little thing that was suggested to offer some relief from this excruciating pain.
With lot of faith and sincerity, I practiced my physiotherapy and Pawanmukta Asana thrice daily. Daily I would ask my physiotherapist whether I would be able to recover or not. And what would happen if I was not so diligent in my practices which were extremely painful, especially at night. The only answer I received was “You will be bedridden for ever.” This thought of future pushed me to do the practices more regularly.
Mental counseling is equally important. As I started doing pranayam and meditation under the care of a very patient and understanding Yoga Teacher, my mental strength gradually increased and so was my physical strength, mobility.
At last, after two years of tireless hard work, the result started showing which boosted my morale very high and deepened my faith in the grace of God.
Diet is also a major factor which has to be taken care of. Due to mental tensions, unnecessary worries, whole body becomes imbalanced and weak. So digestion faces a severe jolt. Hence a very light diet consisting of fresh vegetables with little oil, no spices (red chilies) were all I could digest. Slight deviation, like fried food or pepper, sent my joints again to feel the increase in pain. In 2010 I am 95% free of this problem which is a big feat. But I have to maintain a strict disciplined routine of my life style i.e. eating at regular times, light diet, taking rest in between, doing my asanas and pranayam and do meditation regularly.
Now I have taken up the career of a Yoga teacher & writer, so that I can help others to come out of their miseries, both physical and mental. Now when I look back and think about the agony and hard work I put into to abate the disease, I sometimes wonder – ‘was it not a Tapasya?’ I do not let myself forget even for a single day that God is great, His powers limitless, much beyond the comprehension of a human being.
Though all human beings are unique in their physical and mental constitution, yet some basic guidelines I am writing which are solely based on my experiences. Please read and understand your own body very-very carefully. If they suit you i.e. the pain does not increase, then only follow them.
- Think positive.
- Pick up a hobby according to your capacity.
- Do asanas, pranayama, meditation eg. Yognidra, Antarmouna with the help of a cassette regularly. Do not miss even a single day.
- Keep an eagle eye on your diet and do not give into temptations. It is not easy.
- Keep on imagining your self all hale and hearty.
- Give positive strokes to your self by thinking of people worse than you.
- Repeat mentally “I will be again healthy.” As frequently as possible.
- Garlic, methi, haldi, dry ginger,aloe vera are extremely good Ayurvedic remedies to reduce pain and swelling.
- Have faith in God &your self. According to yoga, “Disease is a teacher.”
- Read good books.
A special note: I consumed steroids for 6 months. I was put on injections of METHODEXTRATE (strongest possible painkiller at that time) for 4 years which were supposed to be consumed life long. Now in 2010 I am 100% off medication! Doctors call it a miracle!